He Taught Me
To have lived
my life and to have known me, it is easy to imagine me as soft and kind, full
of tenderness and love which could expand all the universe, but one day to my
great dismay, a most unwelcome discovery was made.
know that I had become so harsh, rough or aggressive, in a hurry, so needy and
impatient for love and all its affections.
came to be when I met him, a shining star among the mountains and rough
terrains of darkness that had surrounded me over the recent years, once I saw
his face and heard his voice, it was quickly known to me how truly lovely he
was, from tthe first moment I was alone with him, I felt the overwhelming
desire to be near him, hold him and partake in his graceful beauty.
But what I
didnt know was when I meant to make a tender gesture, I had unknowingly
grabbed him a little too hard, by my great surprise in what should have been a
wonderous moment of joy for both of us, he jumped back slightly and cried out,
Just then, I
too let go and stepped back, it suddenly came to me what I had done, in my need
for his affection, I, the former tender one, had hurt him by mistake, I
didnt realize what I had become, how much I must have changed and just
how I had been affected by my experiences.
The moment of
shock led to a sudden need for delving within and taking some time for
contemplation, it hit me just then, how amazing it was how people really do
rub off on us.
moment made me hurt for a second in the dreary land of self disappointment, for
I had oh so hoped to land a great lasting first impression, to leave a mark of
beauty that would cause his heart to want to be with me.
But then, I
became grateful for in that moment, he taught me gentleness, he reminded me to
be softer, kinder, more patient, to slow down and to let life and love happen
in its own time, in that moment I remembered who I had been, he was the image
of the beauty of my past, he reminded me of what I must return to.
Since then, day
after day, he has shown me once again what it feels like to be around the soft,
the beautiful, the graceful, the normal, the peaceful and the true.
Thank you dear
one for teaching me once again the art of the gentle.
By Diana, La